Hello, i dont know what made me want to start blogging again but im assuming its going to help me. I origonally i had a live journal but i think that's a little outdated. Well where to start wow alot shit has been going on in a short period of time. Well in the middle of the year last year i fell in love with my roomate well not just a roomate, my ex bf best friend yeah i know what an ass of me. Well anyhoo, greg and i have been together since may of last year and we have had a year of some serious hardships. Well first off the drama from us dating from randy my ex, then after that had passed about 4 months later i found out i was pregnant with greg's child. We were very caught off guard but happy non the less, at first it tore me and greg apart we fought constantly i thought my world was crumbling around me. Somehow we got throught it, i have no idea how? o wait yes i do :) Greg proposed to me on August 28, 2009. I had never had anyone do anything like that to make me feel so special. Now im not saying getting engaged has solved all our problems but it coverd a booboo for a little while it reminded me why i loved him. Well about 6 months late i lost the baby. Just when everything was starting to get a little better we lost each other again. It completely broke his and my heart. The way i am i dont want sympathy i just want to get through it so i continued to push him away and actually conteplated leaving him and this violent situation i had put myself in. I honestly dont know how we diddnt kill each other at that point. I really dont know how we got here this time maybe ive taken our love for each other for granted but something is keeping us together and whatever it is im glad for it.
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